Moving forward.

I’m nearly a year and a half on from when I was first diagnosed, life has returned to a somewhat normal functioning now, I am currently going through the process of a phased return to work.

I have had to be redeployed into a less demanding role, one where my inability to legally drive currently won’t affect me, I have found that the whole process of returning after a lengthy period off work entails a somewhat running around approach in an attempt to capture individuals to register you again.

I made the comparison to a friend, that it is like being presumed missing and dead and then suddenly reappearing again some years later and now trying to claw back the life you had once before.

I’m still not able to drive, my Neurologist informed me that this would hopefully be next year all being well, I do however sit in a particularly odd place at the moment, my recent MRI scans which were initially clear at the 6 month stage, have shown some areas around where my last treatment occurred, the Dr seems quite confident that this is nothing to be concerned about, but my anxiety around my health is inevitably affected.

So I sit and wait again, a phone may or may not come again in between my August appointment.

I continue to struggle with weight gain, which appears to be a commonality within the Renal cancer group, this appears to be nothing to do with renal function either. I try to eat healthily, trying to watch what I intake, not to much and not to little of things, but the weight continues, I put this down to limited ability to exercise fully, but know that this has to change soon.

But in retrospect, it is important to keep forging forward, to keep making plans for the future and the just the day to life, looking forward, somethings are just completely unknown, but this cannot be a barrier to living your life